I wish I could say…
…what I mean to say, when I mean to say it.
But no. It only comes to me hours later, when I am left with nothing but a very satisfying monologue in my head. But when I am in a heated argument, my defense mechanism is to shut down and turn off. As if my mind has decided for me that it is better not to feel at all than to respond inappropriately. And so it is only much later than I come up with the witty repartee or snappy retort.
Of course, I would only wish I had this ability if I also had the ability, in the moment, to choose to use it or not. Because it might be worse if I said things that couldn’t be unsaid, than to have never have said anything at all.
What do you wish you could say?
I think there is real power in the human voice, as flawed as it may be. And when the voices speak together, when you have a multitude of voices speaking, patterns begin to emerge and there you can begin to understand truth. So in the spirit of the personal narrative, I am hosting a weekly challenge every Tuesday morning, where I will post a topic (ranging from the banal to the intimate) and ask readers to respond. I would love to see everyone’s answers and how similar and different they all are.
You can respond in any way you choose. You can give a fictional response or a true one. You can use words, sentences, and/or photographs. If you have a blog, you can link it with Mr. Linky below. Please be sure to include “Tell It To Me Tuesdays” in the title, and link back to this post. Feel free to use the “Tell It To Me Tuesday” button available to the right. If you don’t have a blog, but want to join in, you can just leave a comment. Please follow the rules. I don’t want to have to delete links. I like links! Don’t make me delete them.
Next week’s challenge: Comfort book or movie
If you had a weekend all to yourself, with no one to see and nothing to do, what book or movie do you turn to time and again? What book or movie satisfies you no matter how many times you sit down with it?