titmt – i’ve learned…

…cynicism is often a mask for fear. It does not necessarily make us any wiser. It only means we have become afraid.

I’ve learned that instead it takes much more courage to hope. To take a leap, even when you are standing on the edge of a cliff, knowing there is the swirling mad abyss below.

It takes more courage to stare the darkness in its face and say, “Though I know not where I land or whether I fall, I must try.”

There was a time in my life when I was afraid, oh so afraid. Waking up at night with cold sweats, hands quaking, cannot see straight afraid. My heart had been shattered and the fragile pieces were thrown into the fire. Repeatedly. Phantoms in my head. Danger around every corner. But I dared hope, even when the naysayers feared for me. It wasn’t just hope that got me through, though. It was damn dogged work. Changing how I deal with problems. Smashing boundaries to bits and setting up new foundations. It was determination that above all else, it could work. Even when it didn’t before. And I was lucky. It could easily at any moment have gone another way, were it not for a refusal to let a precious gift die. And that gift, gives every day, and every day, and more and more, in impossible ways. But what really got me through, beyond work, when logic and reason failed, was every morning waking up and making a choice. And choosing one day more to make that leap of faith.

Some days, it took so much courage to leap.

What lessons have resonated with you in life? What have you learned or discovered?

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6 thoughts on “titmt – i’ve learned…

  1. Courage is something which we underestime, it's so easy to overlook the courage some people need everyday. I am glad that you found the courage you needed.

    It really interesting to think about everything we have learnt and the many things we still have to face and learn ahead of us.


  2. I love this image of standing on the cliff with the swirling insanity below. Some days you just want to turn around and go home. Some days watching it all swirl is exciting. Some days you can't wait to be a part of the swirling mass of life.

  3. Oh, it's always so much harder to hope than to despair. I wish it wasn't that way. I wish I wasn't that way. I have this horrible tendency to see the glass half empty. I'm working on it, though.

  4. It is so much harder. And all the time, you're wondering if you're being stupid for hoping. Because it does seem smarter to not hope sometimes. Especially when everyone around you is saying don't do it. For then, if you fail, you know you'll have to look everyone else in the face when they tell you, "I told you so."

    None of it is easy. Not when it really matters.

  5. "It takes more courage to stare the darkness in its face and say, “Though I know not where I land or whether I fall, I must try.”"

    I love that! This is a really beautiful and inspiring post.