In Recession {A Bigger Picture Moment}

And no, I’m not talking about the economy.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Katie Costello lately – do you know her? She’s an independent musician (meaning no label other than her own), but she’s scoring it pretty big, getting her music featured in magazines like Marie Claire and Teen Vogue and on various TV shows like 90210, One Tree Hill, and (where I found her) Rookie Blue. Not bad, considering the now 21-year-old only started learning how to play music at the age of 13, and by 16 was playing venues in LA and on Sunset Strip.

I like several of her songs, though there’s one in particular that runs through my mind: “Stranger.” You can listen to it here. There’s a line that calls to me:

Humming Hallelujah in the dark

I find myself downshifting creatively these days. I’m at a point in my manuscript where I have to make a big decision and there are good reasons to consider each alternative, so instead of writing, I’m ruminating. My other usual go-to creativity outlet, photography, does not call to me in the interim. The cameras collect dust. Even my iPhone goes untouched. I sometimes turn to baking, but that feels, at the moment, like more energy than I can expend. I recede.

Humming Hallelujah in the dark

I am reading a lot of Rebecca Goldstein and a little of Gary Gutting, and am reminded simultaneously of Jeffrey Eugenides, my first quarter in grad school, and a midnight conversation between a bunch of high-schoolers in D.C. talking about big issues in a way I’d never heard my group of friends back home talk before, and that feeling of huge excitement like you’re just under the swaying lightbulb of epiphany, and how impatient it made me to get to college for the promise of being surrounded by others who wanted to think big thoughts too.

Humming Hallelujah in the dark

I listen to music I’ve never heard before and read authors I’ve never read and think, Stranger, you know me too much. 

Humming Hallelujah in the dark.

Instead of my comfy couch, I move upstairs to my bed. I change my clothes and find a new coffee shop. I wear my favorite shirt with a different skirt. I reorganize my feed reader and switch to tea.

and I think…

Sometimes I just need to see the world through different beats.

Sometimes I need to feel a different light on my face.

Sometimes I need to hear myself in a different voice

…to understand what it is I’m really trying to say.

Each Thursday, we come together to celebrate living life with intention by capturing a glimmer of the bigger picture through a simple moment. Have you found yourself in such a moment lately? Share it with us! 

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4 thoughts on “In Recession {A Bigger Picture Moment}

  1. Even at 62, I remember those heady days.

    And what's lovely is that those

    questioning / big-picture / shake-things-up thoughts

    return again and again in cycles.

    I'm in that time now.

    Again.

    Loved the song…for me, the stranger is Jesus,

    the author of all.

    Thanks for this thought-provoking post.

  2. Jade … This is such a brilliant piece. It's beautiful in words and thoughts, heart and structure. I love how you wove those perfect lyrics into your thoughts and life. And I especially love the line about sitting undertw swinging light bulb of epiphany. Isn't that life? Isn't that grace?

  3. Yes, so moving. I've had to come back and read it a few times…and look so forward to listening to the music. The still moments, the ruminating days/hours – I fear I didn't pay as much attention along the way to the need for them. How inspiring to see you listen to YOU at such a young age!

  4. Oh, amen! This sounds like the recipe for taking good care of your creativity to me. I imagine there is a whole lot of recharging going on right now and at some point soon the way will become clear and all your creative pursuits will call to you again.